Breathe

My verse of the day recently became Ephesians 4:26 "And don’t sin by letting anger control you. Don’t let the sun go down while you are still angry." I find I'm struggling more with anger lately than I've even thought about in years. Many years. Do you have someone in your life who can just push every single one of your buttons? I do, and it's someone in a position of authority over me. Yep, meaning I have to submit to this person every day. Even on my days off, because they never cease texting me over the weekend wanting to know something or wanting me to do something the minute I come into the building on Sunday. Sometimes I think I'd like to pull a "Thomas Jefferson" and cut out the parts of the Bible that stomp on my toes! I'd like to live totally out of my flesh, and tell them what I really think. But, instead, God brings His Word to my mind, and I have to go somewhere private, talk to Him...and breathe.

Letting go

Well, here it is. My thoughts in living color. This could be scary. I can't remember the last time I attempted anything like this, even a handwritten journal. But, seeing as how this entire thing is about letting go, I guess it's time to let go of that insecurity along with everything else that I've thrown out of my life recently. The fear of never being good enough, that people don't like me, that I'll never live up to expectations, that I need to be skinnier, prettier, richer, better...it's going out the window. If I don't close it all the way, these fears will try to sneak back in. It's to easy to declare you've put all your hope and trust in God- so much more difficult to live it every day. I'm done with cliches and hypocritical actions- I want to live it; even if I don't say it. I'd rather keep my mouth shut and do it than declare I'm doing it but know I'm not. I want to stop acting like people can't see right through me when I know my walls are transparent. I want, I desire, blah blah blah. All empty words until I live it. Live in trust. Live in faith. Live to let go. Ok, first step taken. Here goes...everything.