Letting go

Well, here it is. My thoughts in living color. This could be scary. I can't remember the last time I attempted anything like this, even a handwritten journal. But, seeing as how this entire thing is about letting go, I guess it's time to let go of that insecurity along with everything else that I've thrown out of my life recently. The fear of never being good enough, that people don't like me, that I'll never live up to expectations, that I need to be skinnier, prettier, richer, better...it's going out the window. If I don't close it all the way, these fears will try to sneak back in. It's to easy to declare you've put all your hope and trust in God- so much more difficult to live it every day. I'm done with cliches and hypocritical actions- I want to live it; even if I don't say it. I'd rather keep my mouth shut and do it than declare I'm doing it but know I'm not. I want to stop acting like people can't see right through me when I know my walls are transparent. I want, I desire, blah blah blah. All empty words until I live it. Live in trust. Live in faith. Live to let go. Ok, first step taken. Here goes...everything.